Why have I spent the whole day wanting to cry, 

Walking from one room to the next and not knowing why.  

 

The best way to describe how I feel today is empty, 

When I know this isn’t the case as I have plenty.  

 

It doesn’t help that apprehension though, 

Of feeling worthless with no place to go.  

 

There's plenty to keep me occupied at home, 

My mind unsettled and it just wants to roam. 

 

I try to distract myself from this feeling of gloom, 

I can’t stick at one thing, my minds only focus is the impending doom. 

 

I'm here on my own I feel so isolated 

I spend hours gazing out of the window feeling frustrated.  

 

It wouldn't matter if I got invited out or someone came round 

I'd avoid going, an excuse would be found. 

 

I over eat, I'm bored and its far from ideal 

I'll still go on and eat a full meal.  

 

05/03/18 Natalie Sparnon