The difference about today is 11 nights free of Mirtazapine, 

This morning at work people have commented on how brighter I seem. 

 

"Your eyes are sparkling and you look like a weights been lifted", 

I have to agree with them, something has unquestionably shifted. 

 

Don't get me wrong I'm definitely not 100% 

Many sleepless nights with night sweats I have spent.  

 

My anxiety is still very present and widespread, 

I still have a multitude of fears and worries whirling round my head. 

 

However I feel logical again, with more coherence, 

And I never want the chemical haze of Mirtazapine to make a reappearance. 

 

It's been 10 years I have been under your spell, 

To be fair you kept me level but recently I have been unwell. 

 

I can't say I'm sorry to be leaving you behind,  

You were part of my life and we were intrinsically entwined. 

 

You served your purpose but I will be glad to be free, 

Of the hold you seemed to have over me.  

 

I've made a new friend in Venlafaxine for now, 

It’s a low dose and I hope to be free of that one day, somehow.  

 

It's also worth noting my insatiable appetite has decreased, 

That is one withdrawal effect I don't mind in the least.  

 

For the time being I carry on and hope for the best 

It's nice people have noticed that I don’t look so depressed.  

 

15/03/18 Natalie Sparnon