I've literally had the most crazy week. For someone who has suffered so severely with anxiety in the last 18 months and has craved and needed routine and stability, I've made one of the biggest changes in my life that I can make. I decided it was time to spread my wings, get out of my comfort zone and change jobs.
This has been the hardest and most challenging decision I have recently made. To find the inner courage to attend interviews both on the phone and face-to-face. To know that you're going to turn your life completely upside down by leaving a job that has seen you through some tough times, is stable and reliable took a massive amount of soul searching.
I've been through every emotion possible, excitement, being scared, regret etc. My internal dialogue has been bonkers, am I doing the right thing, what if I don't like the new job, will I fit in, why am I doing this to myself?
Yet if I don't try, how will I ever grow?
The new job is still desk based but just different. It's the same hours but seems to have a more socialble aspect. I can walk there from home and it's important I try and leave the car at home and get some daily exercise. They have a gym... So who knows!
It's time for the next chapter on my personal growth journey.
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